i fear for this country sometimes

so, because i have a degree in criminal justice, i find myself applying for a lot of state and federal jobs. while i would much rather have a job at some socially conscious non-profit, the fact of the matter is that they are few and far between. plus, the government has good benefits, and i am a sucker for health insurance.

i am sort of on the fence about this, as it often would mean aligning myself with a current government that i find appalling. but i like the believe in the possibility that maybe i could affect more change from within than from without.

yesterday i was filling out an application for a federal job, and i had to answer all sorts of questions about my professional background, my educational backgroup, my previous drug habits, and a plethora of other personal stuff. and there, in the midst of it all, they threw *this* in:

Are you a member of any foreign or domestic organization, association, movement, group or combinations of persons which is totalitarian, fascist, communist, or subversive, or which has adopted, or shows a policy of advocating or approving the commission of acts of force or violence to deny other persons their rights under the Constitution of the United States, or which seeks to alter the form of Government of the U.S. by unconstitutional means?

communism? really?!? because it seems to me that these days, this nation and it's government has *far* bigger problems to worry about than communists. and what do you suppose happens if you check the "YES" box after that? to even get to this point in the application i had to offer up my full name and address and social security number. how quickly do you think they would come knocking at the casa door?

it's the internal dialogue like these that makes me think that maybe i am not cut out for affecting change from within. maybe it's just time to go stockpile the arsenal and wait for the revolution.